Showing posts with label Autobiography. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Autobiography. Show all posts

Friday, 24 April 2026

Fr Jose Kuriedath CMI - Standing tall - Thinker, Religious, Sociologist

Fr Jose Kuriedath CMI, a scholar and academic among us CMIs, has completed his sojourn on this planet and has entered the next phase of his existence.  It doesn't come as a shock to me or to most of us, his brothers in the order of the Carmelites of Mary Immaculate, and definitely not to him. It was a well-prepared, expected exit, rather, release to the painless world of eternal peace!

I came to know Fr Jose as the director of Chavara Cultural Centre, Kochi, way back in 1979. I was a learner of public speaking under his tutelage there. (No claims of having been a success on that front.)  He had also made some rare appearances at the KCSL camps, which used to be held at Rajagiri, Kalamassery, or Sacred Heart, Kochi.

My next encounter with him was as a young scholastic.  I took the freedom to ask him to borrow the scooter (vespa or bajaj) under his custody, to go for my two-wheeler driving test (this was in 1989). He did not show any reservation in this regard, though such freedom with a senior priest was not so easy to conceive.  It was perhaps the next year or so, I happened to pass by SH college, and we had an unplanned and casual encounter. I remember him taking me to the auditorium and proudly sharing his experiment in participatory management – the parent council members were seated and were persuading the new parents to support the college by voluntary donations.

Though we never kept in touch with each other, during my first visit abroad, in 2001, I managed to fit a short visit to Canada, and he had been the CMI coordinator there. I managed to secure a visa in those days and perhaps announced my arrival by email. I was received warmly – met the two former Principals of SH – Fr George Palamattam and Fr Jose Kuriedath. Fr Jose took me around Toronto; we went to an IMAX show, and on my departure, he gifted me 200 Canadian dollars, a happy surprise for me.

I was privileged to be at the electoral body which elected him to be the general councillor for education for the Carmelites of Mary Immaculate. While he made efforts to rearticulate the CMI educational vision and its core values, he also went around all the CMI educational institutions, animating the ministry across the globe.  I also felt honoured to be invited to felicitate him on his golden jubilee of religious profession held at his parish.

Immediately thereafter, I was fortunate to have him as my Prior and as the Manager of Sacred Heart College, where he had served as a well-respected Principal long before my time. He always commanded the respect of the faculty, many of whose senior members had once been his colleagues. At least once, he did caution me to go slow and give ear to the colleagues on the team, even when you feel that you have grasped what they are about to say. I am afraid that I have not put that valuable piece of caution into practice. He spoke with clarity and conviction, whether preaching in church or addressing an audience. His erudition was beyond question.

Despite his formation in the traditional grant-in-aid system, both as a student and as an academic, he had the courage to defend a model in which those who benefited from the management quota in admissions also contributed to the development of the college infrastructure, while insisting on transparency in the process.

His tenure as Prior of SH seemed to confirm, for the members of the Province, their trust in his leadership, eventually leading to his election as Provincial. He guided the Province with wisdom and balance. After completing his term as Provincial, he transitioned with ease to leading a self-financing institution, Rajagiri School of Engineering and Technology, thereby dispelling the notion that he was a “kattar socialist.” Rather, he proved himself to be a rational thinker who could discern and justify the need for CMIs to venture into such fields of education.

Already a two-time survivor of cancer, a third and entirely different onset was wholly unexpected. Yet, even at the age of over eighty, he displayed remarkable courage, becoming a personification of fortitude. Until April 2026, he continued to attend to his responsibilities in the Director’s office with unwavering commitment. Amidst his suffering, and without complaint, he brought out a book on CMI ministry from a sociological perspective. The Province acknowledged his intellectual and spiritual contributions by electing him to the supreme body of the Congregation, which he attended despite immense physical suffering.

Perhaps the congregation's decision to have him come to Keralam from an otherwise fertile thinking environment of Delhi and be part of its typical higher education culture, has deprived the world from have an Indian Sociologist who could have contributed to Sociological concepts and theories from an Indian-Asian perspective. Perhaps nobody remembers that, or regrets that!

As he now bids farewell after a valiant innings of scholarship, leadership, and endurance, dear Jose Acha, we salute you. May your example inspire emulation among your younger brothers. Adieu. May your grace-filled presence rest in peace!

Saturday, 18 October 2025

Prof. Raju Varghese - the bridge builder for Rajagiri

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Prof. Raju Varghese was a person of good heart, after the Sacred Heart, where, I believe, he began his career as an academic. He was spotted and brought to the Sacred Heart campus, by its visionary founder Rev Fr Francis Sales, who had the knack of identifying individuals of academic excellence and bringing them into the Sacred Heart fold.  When the MSW programme began in the department of Social Work in 1962, he was inducted, and not long after the the programme was shifted to the campus at Rajagiri (1966?), Kalamassery, he had left the campus and had gone to the US - sometime around 1966. 

Prof. Raju had his MSW from Madras School of Social Work and another MSW from the University of Pennisylvania. He got his Ph D in Education (EdD) from the Temple University and MPH from John Hopkins University. 

Though he had a very short stint with the Department of Social Work, Sacred Heart College, he felt that he owed it to Rajagiri, which had assumed the Social Work heritage of Sacred Heart, and the Rajagiri leaders adopted him as their foster father in building a Social Work bridge across the cultures. When Rajagiri was struggling to establish some such tie-ups in management under the initiative of Prof. Athappally of Western Michigan University, embraced gladly by the Principal Rev. Fr Alex, it was Prof. Raju Varghese, who said that why we didn't have a tie up with Maryland University where he was a Professor, and he guided both the sides through the formalities in a matter of a couple of months, and what had been lagging over almost 2 years, happened in the span of a year, with students and faculty starting to move in both the directions - opening a very novel dimension in higher education in India, very specially in Kerala. 

He counselled, guided and brought several batches of faculty and students, and even interested individuals, under that banner. And thanks to the hint from Fr. Alex, perhaps, I was given an opportunity to be a visiting faculty member at the School of Social Work, University of Maryland, Baltimore, in 2001.  The rest of the vibrant partnerships Rajagiri possesses now were more or less a repetition of the model, with some improvisations here and there, except that with Rev. Fr. Saju bringing in a vital dimension of research into it. 

He had been a shelter to the students and teachers visiting from Rajagiri and SH, and his home was a home for them all in the United States.  

I could see the grip slipping away from him, and hence I made it a point that in spite of my lack of time, I would visit him this time I was in the US. I am glad that I did, that in spite of the late hour, we did spend some happy time, reminiscing about the good things of the old. 

He was a conventional believer - a church follower, and tried to support his church to the best of his ability - perhaps, building more than one church in Maryland under his patronage and leadership.  Aunt Molly  (Dr Sarah Korah), took care of him so that he was put to the least trouble; and in the easy passing out of Prof. Raju, at least she is blessed to see that he did not have the pain of languishing in bed in prolonged suffering.  At 88, Raju sir seems to have lived his life full, with a very long academic career in professional social work, having been a support and mentor to many, with his three children (Sanjeev, Suja and Saji) doing well in their own fields and being around when needed, and his beloved wife and all the children being around in prayer to pass him over to the life beyond the curtain!! 

If I read him well, he was all set to establish endowments for academic programmes both at Rajagiri and, thanks to my prompting, at Sacred Heart as well. I hope these will happen and perpetuate his memory for posterity. 

Friday, 3 October 2025

Fr Mathew Vattathara (1950-2025)




I am not spontaneously led to writing this blog, though I did think I would jot down my memories and reflections on Fr Mathew Vattathara CMI. I can't explain this dwand, in spite of his being rather close to me. We lived under the same roof in a peaceful fellowship. My first appointment after completing post-graduation in 1997 was to Yesu Bhavan, where he was a member, as head master of the school, with Mr Vadakkel assisting him. Most of us in the house got along very well - Fr Kariyil, the principal of Rajagiri College, Fr John Pynadath, the Rector and house superior, Fr Vattathara and myself. Fr John was soon gone - transferred to Angamaly.  I observed that the teachers and the students loved Fr Mathew; however, it appeared that he was not happy to continue with that job.  His doctoral studies had been, to my understanding, to his taste - it was on something related to liberation Theology, with justice as its foundation. "

I recall him asking me earlier as a freshly ordained priest or as a student of Social Work, whether it was enough to study thus - though he did not specifically mention anything, I sensed that it was a call to a life of integral liberation, beyond the confines of the institutions - however, I sensed in him, also a kind of helplessness as to what could be done about it, or how to go about it. This is only my guess - which I had sensed those 30 odd years ago; and have tried to articulate right now at his passing. Had he been around now, I could have vetted the hunch by clarifying with himself. That great dream of being an apostolate of liberation could not be given any concrete shape by either of us.  Nor did we ever have a serious discussion thereafter. I had borrowed from his collection couple of books of Paulo Freire to use for my sessions on Social Action. They are still with me as part of the very small collection of books I possess. 

Soon, that is in about a year, he left that community of teachers, students and the Rajagiri campus priests, where he was appreciated and where he belonged. He went to the major seminary of Dharmaram, perhaps teaching Theology of justice, if there was any such thing.  We decided to drive him to Bangalore. In the Maruti Zen of Vishwajyothi, Varghese Puthussery, Joy Kilikunnel and I accompanied him. Joy and me taking turns at the wheel of that cute little car, carrying the luggage of Fr Mathew.  We placed him at his new home, the faculty residence of Chavara Bhavan in a matter-of-fact manner - devoid of the kind of solemn send offs and farewell of the present times.  Having a Maruti Zen itself was deemed a great privilege in those times.   The completion of that term saw him being elected as Provincial and I being elected as a member of his council, in charge of social apostolate.  With my professional training, and with the inspiration received from the initiatives of my predecessor Rev. Kariyil (who had then been elected the General), I went about with some passion - planning, animating, trying to raise corpus for our trusts through pooling resources from the houses, adding an environmental dimension to the social apostolate, and in all the efforts I had his blessings, never any clash. Even my ambitious proposal for a rural coastal campus at the land pruhcased at Vypin was easily okayed by him (as he was looking after that piece of land). However, neither me nor the college could initiate foundational activities that would take the campus off in that direction - though I did initiate some rural outreach programmes and mangrove conservation efforts, with the next ministry, it was all cleared and before long another school project was initiated there. 

The next Ordinary Provincial Synaxis elected Fr Augustine Thottakkara as the provincial, and he would have been happy to have me as his councillor for social apostolate. However, I said I would rather focus on the Ph D, and suggested the previous Provincial himself be in-charge of that so that what was being built up, could be consolidated.  And Fr Vattathara had no issue being a councillor after stepping down as the Provincial.  He was made Vicar Provincial. 

When I learnt about his death soon after the note from Fr Provincial that he was critically ill, it didn't come as a shock, as he had been combating a deadly illness for the past several years.  I checked with the Provincial regarding the funeral plans.  Had it been the usual way, it would have been on October 1st (the very next day), and there was no question of my participation in that.  However, by 7 pm, I got the news that it was to be on Oct. 2nd. Then came a call from Qatar if I was intending to take part, and if yes, to offer a floral tribute on behalf of Doha school. That almost made up my mind, and I looked for a ticket. I got a late night arriving flight for Oct. 1st.  Soon after that I got a call from Fr Provincial (almost in the presence of his council) that it was proposed that I do the memorial reflections during the funeral service.  I had a sort of inkling that this might happen, though I did feel that the provincial himslef, or the batchmate and vicar provincial Fr Mathew Koikara, or the regular preacher Fr Poulose, or his constant companion and assistant Fr Ajeesh, or his long time coworker Fr Varghese Puthussery could do a better job than me.  However, the provincial was almost insistent, and I gave my fiat! 

I did spend time collecting data, reflecting and jotting down the points - almost 3 times; almost 8 pages of notes of the 'Gospel of Fr Mathew Vattathara' integrating the theme of Season of Creation, and making passing references to the three readings and focussing on how Fr Mathew's life was a gospel for all. I did struggle with the language for finding apt words in Malayalam for several terms - e.g., empathy, usage like boldness bordering recklessness, rancour etc.  However, on the whole, I felt rather prepared for a delivery, though as usual with this time too, I think I skipped certain linkages making some of points remaining suspended in the air. But overall, people appeared glad to have listened to good things about Fr Mathew presented without much ornamentation. 

A TRIBUTE TO A 'GOOD MAN' where A Good Man is Hard to Find (Flannery O'Coonnor)

Introduction

The gospel according to St. Mathew 25:21 says: O good and faithful servant... enter into the happiness of your Master.  Amen!! May the word be true for Fr Mathew - let us hope, let us pray. 

Dear members of Vattathara family, CMI family, students of Fr Mathew, friends and people of good will, we listened to Gospel according to St Matthew, now I would like read with you, the gospel written by Fr Mathew through his life. For it teaches us that Straightforwardness and Goodness are synonyms of Sanctity; and that  to be transformed or transfigured into that status is a possibility for anyone, any time; and we can be Pilgrims of that Hope (especially in this jubilee year 2025). 

As Catholic church and other churches celebrate the season of creation (September 1 to October 4), let us celebrate the uniquely stupendous creature (srushti) of Mathew of Vattathara family as the gospel for the day. He is called 'Mattachan' by his freinds and near ones. 

For those happened to be in his company or approach him, he went about doing the good (Acts 10:39) he could (Chavara: Kannu Kattappetta Nanma), as an empathic presence. 

AN OUTSPOKEN REBEL 

During his formative years for priesthood in places like Vazhakulam, Kalamassery, Karukutty, Dharmaram, Christ college - Bangalore, Chethipuzha novitiate, Rajagiri School and Prior General's house - the CMI circles saw him as a gifted candidate - intellectually strong, though not really applying that in his studies, strong communication skills, a natural in the field of sports - football, volleyball and basket ball (later on, badminton, table tennis and cricket as well), a leader for the team and a mentor for juniors - at times the leadership taking the form of a bully as well. 

To the authorities he came out to be daring, outspoken, questioning with a boldness bordering recklessness, finally landing him on an extraordinary training platform termed 'compulsory regency' (CR), with an exceptional second time.  In the later years, when he rose to esteemed offices of the congregation, perhaps, being punished with a CR came to be looked upon as the recognition of a genius!! (At least, having experienced that once, I consider that to be the case๐Ÿ˜. 

Some of the senior students found him a 'dashing young priest' when he was at Rajagiri school as a regent, with his flare for games. 

However, CMI training process, with all its limitations, deserves some praise, as it appears that the 3 years of experiential learning including the two years of CR, did do him good, perhaps tempered him.  There were a few god-fathers for him during that time - perhaps, Fr Alex Oruthayappilly, Fr Thomas More, but above all, Fr Theobald, the then general, who is said to have told him: I have brought you here, not to punish you, but to save you (shikshikkaanalla, rakshikkaan).  Perhaps, he found that spark in the rebel, and sent him to Pune for the last phase of priestly formation. 

A TRANSFORMED ANNOINTED


And in 1980, we find Fr Mathew duly ordained and presenting a submissive and transformed frame - willing to go to work among the unorganised headload workers.  But it was not to be. He was appointed at Rajagiri, and with Fr John Pynadath, well known for his fierce tempers, it was expected that there would soon be calamitous clashes - but there was none. The change was for good. It was this mild-mannered Mathew whom the members of our generation have experienced - a transformed person. 

He was there with Rajagiri school during a critical phase it had to face.  

He took his colleagues along, as I could witness being on the campus. 

He used the conventional saama-daama-danda-bheda (more of danda - corporal punishment) niti to make them walk a straight path. Helped his students to think critically on issues, and also Math. As the famous Tata Steel ad goes: He also taught Mathematics (and very well).  He was well known for his caning methods which over the years got transformed into a shoulder punch with his fist - and I found his students narrating that without any rancour. 

He knew most (all?) of them by name. He knew their families - the problems they had, as being recalled by him in later year casual conversations. Thus, his ministry of education was extended to a family ministry, and ideal for a Christian educator (or for anyone) in turn, making it a ministry of utmost happiness to hundreds of his students.  I am not sure whether he made family visits for this - I think not.  It is really heartening to see the efforts people like Fr Poulose make to deliberately reach out to the families of the students so that all concerned are involved in the learning process, and the learning includes the whole person, not merely the intellect of the student. 

To my understanding, Fr Mathew's approach was devoid of any populism, endearments or any extra-fitting - and nor was he found to be a man of many words.  But his genuineness communicated and it was experienced as care, concern, love or empathy by the students. 

But his liberal thinking and the desire for freedom led him to leave the school ministry and seek higher learning. He obtained admission for a research programme at the prestigious Catholic University of Leuven, where, under the guidance of the famous liberation theologian, Prof. Georges De Schrjver SJ, he completed a Ph. D in (Liberation) Theology, a rare feat among the CMIs. His time at Leuven appears to have been a cherished period for him, as I surmised from the very many references he used to make regarding life there. There, he was actively involved in organising the discussions on the Leuven India Theological Forum.  He was a friend in need for the CMIs who arrived there for learning, usually penniless - cooking food for them, typing the thesis for seniors like Fr Antony Vallavanthara, even monetarily being of support for the freshers like the now well-established Fr Kurian Kachappilly.  His thesis was titled: The Methodology of Latin American Liberation Theology: Towards an Understanding and a Critical Evaluation of Its Relation to Marxism (May 1992).

But arriving back as a Theologian, he was asked to serve Rajagiri school, which required some experienced hand, and that tryst lasted a long time, from which he got release only by 1999, when he was invited to be on the faculty of Theology of Dharmaram College. I am given to understand that he employed interactive learning rather than finishing off his task with the stereotypical lectures when dealing with topics like 'Trinity'. Again, that too did not last long as he was elected Provincial in 2002, and thereafter as Vicar Provincial in 2005, making him once and for all time a Rajagiri man through and through. 

Thereafter he was part of the team with Fr Varghese Puthussery in Dubai, and later on, with Fr Isaac Tharayil in Doha, to set up, what I deem as the Gulf Mission - with many of our fraternity wincing the term 'mission'  (for most of them, it is just a contract and a means for earning some money, rather than a mission).  That stint was followed by the closure of the Dubai chapter in 2017, and he came back to take charge of the Rajagiri Colleges, one after the other, which lasted till the very last. 

A CHEQUERED CAREER: From a 'worldly point of view', he had a chequered career spanning some 45 years. 

- I would count starting with his 3 outings as a regent, providing him ample learning opportunities

- then, at Rajagiri school and boarding, as teacher, rector, headmaster and campus coordinator

- then, as a faculty of Theology at Dharmaram,

- establishing schools at Dubai and Doha 

- director of Rajagiri colleges 

- Provincial, Vicar Provincial and Provincial Councillor. 

He never sought any position, but as they came, he accepted them gracefully, trying to do justice to those offices, though in the last years, his ailments and continuous treatment might have impeded his effectiveness in those roles. However, he strove to be there, active and alive and letting not the illness and the painful treatment overpower him.  In each of these, the biblical dictum of 'the stone rejected becoming the cornerstone' was getting fulfilled. 

And that is also the miracle of the transformation of a rebel into a considerate leader in authority. Some would put it as a total paradigm shift, a 180 degree turn-around, and some would say that, from a critic, he got coopted by the system. 

I have sensed a kind of disappointment in him for not having been able to be the radical he wanted to be.  Perhaps, because of that, he was never found to be a pushy task-master, and for some of his friendly colleagues, he was a 'slowcoach'.

A RELIGIOUS WITH A DIFFERENCE: From a religious point of view, I find him

a person unattached - while he had good relations with his family members, even in that we could find a kind of detachment.  The healthy bond he had is vouched by the fact that even we who had lived with him, know most of them, though it was not that we visited his house or they made frequent visit this side - but they were all part of that healthy network of relationships. 

an empathic person - though he did not really employ any specific technology people felt understood, and accepted by him. And in his role as the provincial superior, he could intervene effectively to help some younger members in their crisis situation, that they could attain priesthood, and could grow to give effective leadership in the province in various leader roles. 

a friend - the warmth of friendship he extended was experienced by his peers - they recall that he would leave an impact on them, that once having met him, it was not easy to forget him - his warm welcome, solicitude and smile.

He never seemed to hold any rancour for anyone, including those who had made decisions not in his favour - nor with people who held other views than his. 

a gentle-meek person - Everyone uses the term  'gentleman' (เดฎാเดจ്เดฏเตป) for him.  He was indeed a gentleman, but more than  that - He was a gentle and meek person (เดธൗเดฎ്เดฏเตป), after the heart of Jesus (Mtt 11:25). Though he wouldn't preach about that, he was that. 

a man who believed in living life full - He believed in life and loved life, fulfilling the famous saying 'to be fully human and fully alive'. He enjoyed the good things of life - games and sports, good food, good movies, good books, good company. 

an example of fortitude - The last years showed the cardinal virtue of 'fortitude' shining in him - he faced the sufferings in life, as they came, in a matter-of-fact manner - never getting dejected, nor losing hope.  Trying to make the best of the situations. 

Over 30 years he was deprived of his favourite pastime of sports and games 

Over 20 years he had to struggle with the malfunctioning of kidneys and the high creatin level. 

Over 4 years he had to undergo dialysis, twice or thrice a week, and he bore with the pain and suffering involved calmly. 

In all these, there was hardly an instance of complaint, cribbing or self-pity!

In those last four years, he reminded me of the 'man' of Kipling's 'If':

'If you can force your heart, nerve and sinews

To serve your turn, long after they are gone

And so hold on when there is nothing in you

Except the will that says to them: hold on!'

 

a 21st century educator - Nowadays, we speak about the 4Cs of 21st century as educational outcomes - Critical thinking, creativity, communication and collaboration - perhaps, a fifth could be added - compassion. I would say, that as an educator, he proved himself to be a model for most of them and tried to transfer most of them to his students. 

I find him a stalwart critical thinker, perhaps, questioning many things his avocation takes for granted - especially those ritualistic adherence. He felt they were enslaving rather than liberating, and like Galileo, who was asked to recant, but still soliloquised, 'it still moves around the sun', I think he found the religiosity entrapped in ritualism as unchristian, though he no longer said so, aloud. Perhaps, with 'office for the dead' pouring in incessantly in his honour or for the repose of his soul, bona fides notwithstanding, might be making him turn in his coffin!! 

Indeed, he proved himself to be an effective communicator, with a facility to collaborate with all sorts of people and above all communicating compassion through his straightforward and artless presence, disposition and company. 

a rare fusion - As we bid him farewell on October 2nd, I feel the 3 people we celebrated in the days of Oct 1 and 2, fused in him. On Oct 1st, the church celebrated a young nun confined to the carmel cloisters and doing nothing so very extraordinary, being elevated to public veneration as an extraordinary person. I feel within the circle of CMI-Rajagiri, Fr Mathew reamined in a way, very ordinary - with hardly any new institution or initiative by him, hardly any organisation which he led (though not forgetting his active role in the formation of Leuven India Alumni Forum, his active presence on ROSA platforms, and his blessings for the local youth initiative I took - FYRE), hardly ever being a renowned preacher, hardly ever being a great author publishing books or articles, nor as a social media person... but he achieved a place in the hearts of people he came across - peers, colleagues, students, parents.  He has established his own 'little way' by his simple and straigthforward presence. When St. Paul grapples with the nature of 'afterlife' in the reading from the letter to the Corinthians (I Cor 15:), this is already begun for Fr Mathew, as his 'yassha shareeram' (the body of fame). 

As we celebrate Gandhi Jayanti today, I find  him as someone who had absorbed the principles of non-violence, rather, non-agression in his uttaraashram, if not in the poorvashram. So too, as we celebrate the guardian angel (whatever that may mean), I find him a guardian angel for the many who were entrusted to his care, or to the many whom he engaged with in several ways. 

a befitting reason to celebrate the Season of Creation - As we are concluding the season of Creation, let us raise our hearts in praise for the unique miracle of the creation that Fr Mathew was, for his presence of forthrightness, for the package of gifts he brought with him, for the great example of fortitude and perseverance, for the assurance that transformation is possible for individuals, and the rejected stone can be the corner stone, and today, above all, for the gentle and prepared passage into eternity like Aaron who solemnly departs from this life (Numbers 21:)

A Personal Note of Gratitude - I am personally grateful to the Provincial council to have identified and entrusted me to pay tribute to him and proclaim the gospel that he was, though I am not sure if I could do justice to that. 

I feel grateful to God that I had the privilege of his company for over two years under the same roof, as his next door neighbour, the privilege to see him off on his venture into Theological pasture riding with him all the way up to Bangalore; and also for having given me the opportunity to be on his team of Provincial council, and in the last four years on my visits to the Provincial house, to share table fellowship with him, and to get to know his struggles without complaints. 

TRIBUTES 

I would stop with 3 excerpts from the several messages I received, unsolicited,  in the last two days:

1. By Dr M.P. Antoni, veteran social worker who had seen him for several decades on the Rajagiri campus:

เดช്เดฐเดฃാเดฎം 

เด•เดดിเดž്เดž เดชเดคിเดจാเดฑാം เดคീเดฏเดคി เด…เดš്เดšเตป เดธാเดฐเดฅ്เดฏം เดตเดนിเดš്เดšിเดฐുเดจ്เดจ เด•ോเดณേเดœിเตฝ เดšെเดจ്เดจു เด‰เดš്เดšเดธเดฎเดฏเดค്เดค് เดจേเดฐിเตฝ เด•เดฃ്เดŸുเดฎുเดŸ്เดŸിเดฏ เด“เตผเดฎ്เดฎเด•เตพ เด‡เดจ്เดจും เดนൃเดฆเดฏเดค്เดคിเตฝ เดคെเดณിเดž്เดžുเดจിเตฝเด•്เด•ുเดจ്เดจു.

เด…เดจ്เดจു เดชเด™്เด•ുเดตെเดš്เดš เดธംเดญാเดทเดฃเด™്เด™เตพ, เด“เตผเดฎ്เดฎเด•เดณുเดŸെ เด’เดดുเด•്เด•ിเตฝ เดจിเดจ്เดจും เดชൊเด™്เด™ിเดฏ เดนൃเดฆเดฏเดธ്เดชเตผเดถിเดฏാเดฏ เดตാเด•്เด•ുเด•เตพ—เดŽเดฒ്เดฒാം เด‡เดจ്เดจും เดฎเดจเดธിเตฝ.

เด’เดฐു เดœീเดตിเดคเด•ാเดฒം เดฎുเดดുเดตเตป เด…เดš്เดšเตป  เดŠเดŸ്เดŸിเดฏുเดฑเดช്เดชിเดš്เดš เดธൗเดนൃเดฆเด™്เด™เดณും เดตിเดคเดš്เดš เดธ്เดจേเดนเดตും เดšെเดฏ്เดคുเดคീเตผเดค്เดค เดจเดจ്เดฎเด•เดณും เดธเดฎൂเดนเดค്เดคിเดจാเดฏി เดจเตฝเด•ിเดฏ เดฎเดนเดค്เดคാเดฏ เดธംเดญാเดตเดจเด•เดณും เด•ാเดฒเดค്เดคിเดจเดช്เดชുเดฑം เดŽเดจ്เดจും เดจിเดฒเดจിเตฝเด•്เด•ും.

เดจเดจ്เดฎเดฏുเดŸെ เดชാเดคเดฏിเตฝ  เดธเดž്เดšเดฐിเด•്เด•ാเตป เด…เดš്เดšเตป്เดฑെ เดœീเดตിเดคം เดŽเดฒ്เดฒാเดตเตผเด•്เด•ും เดŽเดจ്เดจും เดช്เดฐเดšോเดฆเดจเดฎാเดฏിเดฐിเด•്เด•ും.

2. By Dr Renju Tharian, his student at Rajagiri school, now serving as a senior surgeon in Chicago. 

Sitting in the beautiful island of Santorini, looking over the blue waters of the Aegean sea, I feel so empty and sad to hear about Vattathara Achan’s passing. 

I have had the privilege of being taught and trained by some remarkably accomplished people, but Vattathara achan was by far the teacher who inspired and influenced me the most. I am not sure if my life’s trajectory would be what it is, if not for having a teacher like him during one of the most impressionable years of my life. It would probably be the same for most of us. 

He taught us more about life than just mathematics. His most important lessons for me were his lessons on critical thinking. I remember him often diverging from matrix and geometry and talking to us about philosophy, theology, current affairs and his views on almost all aspects of life. More importantly he always made sure he explained why he held those views, never expecting his students to blindly agree to his opinions and view points. It’s his lessons in class X, that changed my outlook on life in general. He gave me the confidence to realize that even an average student like me can do something worthwhile with perseverance, resilience and willingness to step out of the “ comfort zone”. I feel a deep sense of gratitude for having had a teacher who inspired me to be the best I can be and for that I can’t thank Vattathara achan enough. 

Rest in Peace, Vattathara Achan. Thanks for everything, so long and see you on the other side.

3. Rev. Fr. Jose Kariamadam CMI - his coworker and friend.

We lost one of my best friends in the CMI, a free thinker, humble, simple and a  down-to-earth guy. He was basically an agnostic.

There were times we talked about the afterlife, the existence of God, heaven, hell, purgatory etc. He was a seeker of truth and died as a seeker.  He wanted social change and had a different perspective on spirituality as a whole.  There was a little of Tony DeMello in him. 

" I don't know anything about tomorrow, but I know who holds tomorrow, and He will hold my hand!" 

My own tribute on the FB - https://www.facebook.com/1251360683/posts/pfbid0kUD7uuSsJ7xzMh49H1C1tUDCvCL3qcjXixdT4oHMdmjqYLQir9K85N64X7JHSm2pl/

PRANAMAM: Let me conclude by offering the lines of Madhusoodhanan Nair (written on Mahatma Gandhi) as  my tribute to Fr. Mathew Vattathara

เดคเดจിเดฏേ เดจเดŸเดจ്เดจു เดจീ เดชോเดตുเด• 

เดคเดณเตผเดจ്เดจാเดฒും เด…เดฐുเดคേ เดชเดฐാเดถ്เดฐเดฏเดตും เด‡เดณเดตും 

เด…เดจുเด—ാเดฎിเดฏിเดฒ്เดฒാเดค്เดค เดชเดฅിเด•ാ, 

เดคുเดŸเตผเดจ്เดจാเดฒും เด‡เดŸเดฑാเดคെ เดจിเตป เดงീเดฐ เด—ാเดจം (2)

Thursday, 5 June 2025

Chakola in Thevara (Perumanur) and the Payyappilly-Palakkappilly of Perumanur around them.

Dearly beloved Mrs Annamma Chakola (Annamma Chedathi for the people of Thevara) passed away. Having been rather familiar and friendly with her during my stint at Sacred Heart monastery, Thevara (2010-21), I feel bad that I am not able to be there to say a final goodbye to her. 

My friend Jose Jacob, who was the son of Prof. K.C. Jacob of SH College, stayed in 'Chakola Colony'.  It was just about 300 mts from our house on the Chackalackal road. I had never used the term Chackalackal road (I think it was thus named); I think this road is now named Deever Road (perhaps after some Deever or after Dheevara community, though this section hardly ever had anyone from Dheevara community.  It should definitely have been named Payyappilly road after the predominant family there and the renowned Venerable Fr Varghese Payyappilly, our great grand uncle.) The entire section had mostly our Palakkappilly family households, also called Payyappilly. One taravad was called Illathuparampil - which appeared, of the lot, a little more advanced and educated. There was also a section called Koonamveedu. where there were only female inheritors and the Vellyamma of that family was married to Thayyil Luka (from Kottayam Dt). He inherited the property and it became Thayyil, though among us, it was still Koonammveedu. I never felt they were part of our circle.  Thayyil Luka and Vellyamma had again 3 daughters, two of whom embraced religious life in the Catholic church, and the lone daughter left behind, Thankamani became a local school teacher (I think, at primary level) and got married to Prof. Joseph Panjikkaran of Zoology department of Sacred Heart College. Their eldest daughter Jessamma, was almost my age, and by the time we grew up, it had become Panjikkaran family.  There was another Koonamveedu, where the Vellyappan had only one daughter, and she is now married to a ..... of Thevara, and comparatively large property holdings of Payyappilly family has gone to another family.  At least 2 families of my father's generation ended having no issues, but the property has gone to their wives' families. One more family had a child adopted. In our established and unchristened 'Palakkappilly Colony' facing the Chakola colony of the Varattans, now just about 8 households remain as Palakkappilly, with hardly any unity (though there is no fight or disunity as such).  I am afraid hardly anyone in the present generation possesses the Surname Palakkappilly or Payyappilly. 

In the present day, in this locality, there remain just 10 households having the title Payyappilly-Palakkappilly.  Even during those times, Chakola had a few buildings in our unnamed 'colony', given to some of his staff members as quarters for a nominal rent. I think gradually, either they inherited that or purchased those properties from Chakola. 

I began this note describing the Chakola colony. Now this suffix of a 'colony' to Chakola sounded very hep for our times, evoking something elite as distinct from us commoners and locals. Yes, the important aspect about it was that almost all who resided there were from other parts of the states - varattar (usually used in masculine singular as something unfavoured, if not abusive). We hardly ever understood or bothered about the nuances of 'colony'.  Perhaps, it was Chakola himself who named it thus. It was a kind of gated property without a gate. There was a garland-like tarred road with quarters built neatly on both sides and the centre. Altogether, there were perhaps 10 to 15 houses in the 'colony' with the garland road leading to Chakola's single-story lakeside residence. The Chakola property appeared elegant, though the house in itself was not at all imposing.  There resided the founder of this 'colony', Mr Joseph Chakola, together with his consort Annamma Chakola. They had come from Thrissur and had purchased this plot from Luiz sayipp (most likely the Malayalam version of Sahib, the Hindustani equivalent of Sir/Master. S.P. Luiz s/o Paul Luiz was a well-known Anglo-Indian politician who lived in Perumanur).  I think when we search our family history, at least a sizeable section of this property belonged to our ancestors, who are said to have settled in this place from Paravoor (fashionably written in English as Parur).  Joseph Chettan and Annamma Chedathi were people who were held in honour in business, church and political circles.  Though they were Syrian Christians and within our parish limit, I hardly ever saw them in parish church. I think, if they did go, presumably they did, it was to the monastery church, for they didn't belong to our local community. 

I had a few occasions to visit that palace that had nothing palatial about it - usually on our annual rounds in October for Mission Sunday Collection. And if recall correctly, Joseph chettan would give Rs. 5.00 without a smile, whereas Dr A.K. Chacko who occupied the first quarters in the colony facing the  Thevara road would contribute Rs. 5.00 with a smile and some friendly banter with us kids. He was a regular at the Church, on almost all days, and without fail on Sundays. Initially, he used to drive his ambassador to the Church (though the church was only about 300 metres away), but after he had had a cerebral stroke, his wife drove the car for him.  While an amount of Rs 5.00 was quite a generous contribution, which made us young altar boys happy, when I look back, I feel it was a paltry sum as far a Joseph chettan's stature was concerned.  (Though a 100-rupee note was a rare thing to possess by an ordinary young man, I had seen my St. Augustine classmates like Krishnakumar, Dandapani and Anil Sivan possessing, not one, but many such notes, and spending lavishly among their friends, including me.) Perhaps, Joseph Chettan was contributing in many other ways, and he condescendingly looked at this as some kids' affair to be encouraged at their level. 

Joseph chettan's daughter's wedding was a big event - the entire garland road of the colony was made into a pandal and decorated. I don't know if we had an invitation. The wedding took place in the Ernakulam Cathedral, I think, and not in our parish church. Many years later, I met the family at Kalamassery - with four children - 2 girls and 2 boys.  The common mass was usually my duty, and they used to interact and respond. Once, my reference to something from Hindu tradition during the homily was questioned by Mr Jose Anathanam.  Some time later, I learnt that the family had joined the newly formed sect of the elite Christians of the Syro-Malabar church, under the leadership of one Anathanam.  But he appeared like the young man who approached Jesus with great eagerness and genuineness; and perhaps, continues to be so, unlike many of us steeped in and complacent with our elaborate liturgies and ritual prayers. 

Then the great Joseph Chettan of Chakolas passed away sometime in the late 70s.  That was the most solemn celebration of death I had ever witnessed in Keralam, till the modern times emerged, and everything became available for everyone, and St Oommen Chandi set new standards while bidding farewell to the Common Home in this state.  Again, perhaps the Chackolas of those times felt it was not befitting that such an eminent person get buried in an island hamlet like Konthuruthy. He was solemnly carried in an unimaginably long motorcade and most likely buried in the Cathedral cemetery or somewhere in Thrissur. I don't recall. I never felt attached to visit him, but the whole thing was a spectacle, and I was a spectator. With Joseph Chettan gone, the family apparently suffered serious setbacks in their enterprises. There was perhaps no one interested in maintaining the kingdom he had established.  The famous Chakola Silk house, run under the leadership of Annamma Chedathi also was no longer heard about. 

Our Malayalam teacher at St Augustine's (whose real name none of us was sure about - we called him Ponnamma sir - don't know why) once narrated about vimochana samaram with, Chackola annamma chedathi in the lead! เด‡เดฑเด™്เด™ിเดช്เดชോเดฏി เด‡เดฑเด™്เด™ിเดช്เดชോเดฏി เด•േเดฐเดณ เดœเดจเดค เด‡เดฑเด™്เด™ിเดช്เดชോเดฏി. I was surprised to hear such a reference to my neighbour in a school classroom about 10 kilometres away. I was impressed. 

A  lady used to great privileges and with readiness to serve the society, her last years were not all that comfortable. Once in a year she used to give a high tea to the members of the monastery. She knew the elder daughters of our family and used to refer to them when she used to meet me at Thevara, even when she did not have access to abundant resources.  And she would join the community for that. 

By 2021, I think her memory started fading. However, till the last time I met, perhaps she was already past 90 then, she still had retained the natural grace that her face exuded. I feel bad that I have not been able to meet her since then, and now that she is departing, a venerable, warm, friendly lady in the neighbourhood, and committed to the well-being of the less privileged, I am not able to bid her farewell. 

As Fr Austin puts it: For the Thevara-Perumanur region, Joseph Chettan and Annamma Chedathi were the uncrowned King and Queen.  And she has lived a life of fortitude and forbearance and of spreading joy in spite of her various sufferings and for almost 5 decades she has lived that life without the support of Joseph Chettan, who departed in the prime of his life as a business leader and public figure. 

I was very glad to listen to Fr. Sabu, my colleague at SH College, as her spiritual father in the her final years on the planet, giving glowing tributes to her spiritual status, her keen desire to be with the Lord, and in the Lord's house. I hope the psalmist's prayer is fulfilled in her: 'My heart and soul rejoiced, when I heard them say, let us go to God's house' (Ps. 121). 

May she rest with the Lord in abiding peace and abundant joy!

Note: In the present day, decolonising and recapturing are happening. My cousin Johny, having a relatively well established business, has managed to get back a sizeable chunk of Sayyip's as well as Chackola's property. 

Monday, 26 May 2025

ACTION PACKED DAYS OF A SENIOR CITIZEN May 2025


Trip to Doha My title as the Academic Director of Rajagiri Public School implies that I ensure that Rajagiri standards are maintained at Rajagiri Doha.  This necessitates that I am there on the campus during the course of the year to assess the quality of functioning of the Rajagiri institution there.  After almost 10 days of intensive review exercises with all the committees and the departments of the college, I set off on the 9th of May to Doha. We have almost a 3-hour drive to the airport, almost 100 kilometres away. Usually, I ride a bike to Lucknow Cathedral at Hazrat Ganj (would mean respectful or divine or holy market - it is a prime area of Lucknow city) and then go to the airport by Metro. Metro station is exactly on the entrance of the Cathedral. It reaches directly to the airport and is very convenient. 

Religions for Peace - Lucknow This day, we had some tasks to accomplish at the university, and then we had to meet our Lucknow bishop regarding a celebration to be held later on the campus. And by coincidence, there was an interreligious gathering for peace (in the wake of the warlike situation between India and Pakistan). After meeting the bishop, I decided to attend that as I consider this a very important aspect of being a Christian today. Could meet with some of the guests, outstanding among them was Dr Ammar Rizvi who is leading politician of this region, but who takes keen interest on such platforms (that he has switched his loyalties from Congress to some other centrist parties and then to BJP is perhaps on account of his being part of today's politics of convenience). The meeting with Bishop as the chief guest and supported by the Cathedral choir, made a pledge for peace.  The representatives of all religions, especially of the Shia and Sunni factions of Islam, condemned violence in the name of religion and made it very clear that the Holy Quran does not support violence and killing in the name of religion. That definitely implies the religious texts handed over from the past need interpretation for today. The Shia scholar or Maulavi (?) was a very elegant young man clad in a very Arabic sort of dress. And our bishop was clad in his typical Roman clergy dress with the purple sash. 

This is a good platform, and such platforms ought to be there in every town now. I thought we should take some such initiative in Sitapur. 

Adani Fame - Just in Name I pushed off to airport towards the end of the program and boarded the plane to Doha. It is indigo operated in collaboration with Qatar Airways. If you book with Qatar Airways, you may get the same flight for a higher price, and perhaps, meals are served free for that. If you book with indigo, it may be slightly less expensive, and no food would be served unless you paid extra for that.  

The new Lucknow airport is good. There is only one launch, and our Adani Baba has grabbed it. For almost a year, none of my cards had access privileges to that. However, now one of them has gained that status. For all the name of Adani, it is a poor show - a very poor show. For over a month, the Air Conditioner is not functional. Food is generally vegetarian, with the exception of one or 2 dishes. It is an over-crowded 2 star facility, and people are repeatedly told it is full, you will have to wait - but no arrangement for the waiting passengers to be informed when it becomes free. 

Doha - the best airport for a resident to arrive or depart - totally hassle-free. Doha is warm, but during the 10 days, except for the last day, it was not all that oppressively hot. The typical summer day, by 6 am, the water in the taps would be really hot water, and unless you have stored water for your bath, you would find it difficult to have a bath thereafter. On the last day of my stay, I was fortunate to have the foretaste of the real summer - the atmosphere really blazing, and you get the feel of being near a furnace as you walk in the sun. 

My main engagements were observing the classes while in session and making an assessment as per the prescribed format for the school. The teachers later on interact and get feedback. There was also mother's day celebrations by the senior, junior and KG sections, all of which I attended and during which I briefly addressed the students/parents.  A happy coincidence was the possibility to take part in the IBE Qatar educational summit, which is a very useful platform where educational experts, edupreneurs and edtech people gather and exchange notes.  We get to know many relevant things and trends in the domain of education and can forge tie-ups and get to know some experts whom we could invite to the school as resource persons. 

My student and once an arch-ambassador for SH Alumni group (AASH), Mr Alan Jerson, hosted two celebrations to which I was also invited - his wedding anniversary (with me having the privilege of blessing the wedding) and his doted daughter's 6th birthday. The latter was held at Caravan, a good place for seafood in Qatar. We also had a governing body meeting, where we discussed quality assurance issues regarding the school.  For the wedding anniversary, we substituted the traditional cake with a Nahdi Mandi fish, which they cut wishing each other a namak-mirchi (salt & spicy) year ahead.

Srilankan Hospitality I opted for a Srilankan flight - as it was considerably less expensive to the substitutes of Indigo/Qatar flights, though it had to be a longer flight with a transfer at Colombo. But, as expected, the Srilankan hospitality appeared to compensate well for the extra trouble.  Besides, the INDIGO/Qatar arrival would have been at the unearthly hour of 2.30 am, whereas Srilankan would arrive at 9 am.  I thought that suited me well.  

Bangalore again: Surprisingly for a Thursday morning, No. 14 Vayuvajra bus from the airport, for which I had to wait for almost 25 minutes, took only about 1 hour and 15 minutes to negotiate the infamous Bangalore traffic. I could step down right in front of the newly opened West gate (close to the centre for the multiply challenged people - Aswaas) of my alma mater, Dharmaram College (the CMI Major seminary).  Since I had come to meet the VC (my confrere Rev. Dr. Jose Chennattussery), he had already made arrangements with Mr Tony the hospitality section in-charge of DC.  He, as usual, was very welcoming and obliging, going out of his way to help the guests. I had a room all set. Got ready. Offered mass, and then I went to Christ University to join the VC and the secretary general of IFCU, Prof. Francois Mabille for lunch at the Central Block, where usually such luncheons are hosted. The purpose of Bangalore visit was to meet him, as I plan this year to attend its annual general assembly to be held in Mexico. This happens every three year, and it is an interesting gathering of catholic institutional leaders across the globe, but dominated by Western Europe. I had been a member of its executive committee for a term of 3 years and have attended its assemblies earlier in Rome, Ireland and Melbourne. Last one, in Boston, though part of the organising body, I missed as I had not yet received the renewal of my US visa post-COVID. My purpose of meeting him was to seek some waiver on the exorbitant fee for participation in the 5-day conference (almost 1000 Euro without residence). My argument that this sort of organisation tends to be exclusive rather than inclusive, and hence non-catholic (!), usually puts them off. So this time, in all humility, I tried to seek his goodwill to consider some waiver of that fee. Having known me for many years, he was happy to meet me, and said in the nice bureaucratic fashion that he would put it to the council and see if something could be done about it. 

Fr Jose, whom we generally call CC, showed me some of the publications from Christ University, a filial institution of Dharmaram College, which has now become one among the top 100 universities of the country. I was really impressed, especially with the edited work with him as the first editor - Encyclopaedia of New Populism and Responses in the 21st Century. A voluminous scholarly work! Wow - that is really something to be proud of!! I regret that there is any such contribution on my side, though I always think, I am capable of doing that - but scholarship has never been a serious business for me!

Moving around Bangalore on TVS - iQUID 

I had the day for me - met some of the confreres familiar to me, played basketball (not with full vigour, as I am careful about my repaired right shoulder) with the lone batch of scholastics on the campus. At 60, still able to match my wits with them on the basketball floor - happy! Joined the common prayers, which are recited with great unction and melody. The liturgy of the hours at Dharmaram is now celebrated in English.  

My good friend and confrere, Rev Dr Sebastian, a senior professor of Canon Law, was quite willing to spare his e-scooter (TVS iQube) for me to move around. That was great. 

Next day, after the morning worship, I had the regular Dharmaram breakfast. The old BTS bread (Bangalore Transport Service on account of its shape similar to BTS buses of the '60s) of Kochukutty chettan fame is now replaced with the new BTS, more or less the same in structure, but not as good in texture. I enjoyed one sandwich with jam and butter, just to relish the old days. I went to Kristu Jayanti College at Narayanpura on the iQube, taking help from google map and Waze.  I didn't miss the way - Richmond Circle, Kamaraj Street, Hennoor Main Rd and Narayanpura. It took a little over an hour, with fits and starts on account of the need to look up the google map. The earphone connection was not working properly. 

As I negotiated my way through the packed street with vehicles bumper to bumper, I recalled my Saturdays as a student in Bangalore - I used to go out on a bicycle make a round of the prominent parts of the city, and get back in about 2 hours, after a stop over at the GPO to check on the new postal stamps released.  That Bangalore is unimaginable - it has become cruelly crowded. 

Kristu Jayanti - SHDC collaboration - In most of our institutions, if we announce that we are 'fathers', then usually no other question is asked. Very often some are immediately accepted by their appearance, whereas, many a time, my appearance or dress made people to hesitate a bit, though they do let us in. Kristu Jayanti, though just 25 years old, has grown into a gigantic and effective institution with good discipline and good repute, and I believe, a lot of goodwill. The student strength of the 10 acre campus is a staggering 15000. It has become an autonomous institution almost at the same time as Sacred Heart College, but has advanced much more thanks to the minimal interference policy of the state as well as of the booming economy of a populous metropolitan city. But beyond all that has been the excellent teamwork of the fathers of Kottayam province. Presently, it is headed by Rev. Dr Augustine CMI, a junior confrere and friend of mine. He had given me an appointment at 11 am. I arrived well in time, waited aaraam se. Then I was figured out by Dr. Richards of Social Work department, who expressed pleasure in seeing me, and insisted on tea/coffee, which I resolutely resisted. We shared some past good experiences, and looked at the possibilities of some sort of collaboration - I invited his students to do short-term internship with me at Sitapur so as to plan our community outreach programmes. 

Fr Augustine became free from governing body meeting around 11.15 and we had some discussions as to how to take our collaboration further.  He assigned a younger colleague, Rev. Dr Joshy CMI, the HR head with the task. We held a WhatsApp meeting immediately involving our team at Sitapur and Dr Joshy and decided on a timeline. That was fabulous. 

SHHS school-mate By then, I had done parallel work to connect with my school friend Santhosh Sridhar, who rode to the campus. Though we are almost of the same age, he looks deceptively young. My regret is that in spite of looking old, no body cares for an old man while travelling, or even vacates the seat reserved for varishth nagarik. We had a good time together, and in the end, both of us joined the fathers (a big number of them, including some guests from Keralam with another batchmate among them) for a sumptuous lunch and continued


to share our memories of the school time, and also some pet personal projects which Santhosh was working on - a comparative timeline of the world history. That appears terrific, and I hope before long Santhosh will come out with something uniquely useful for history and geography lovers.  As my classmate, I remember his great love for languages - English and Malayalam, and his ability to write very impressively in English.  I also took him around, and then we parted. 


I felt happy accomplishing a mission and that too on a non-polluting and very less expensive mode. The scootter showed 89% power and displayed 64 kms.  The calculation appeared correct. I didn't use the power mode - the maximum speed was 48. And I covered almost 38 kilometres. It indicated battery storage to go another  20 kms. But CMIs are yet to get tuned the concept of energy transition when it comes to choosing their mode of transport. 

Got sufficient time to pack up. Attended evening prayers. And after that, to my surprise I found two of my Kochi province confreres ready with a car to see me off to the bus stop. I was all set to walk the distance as usual. They not only dropped me, but remained with me till I boarded the Kallada Non-AC bus, which arrived about 20 minutes past the scheduled time of 8.50. 

But what I observed with surprise was it a little over 1 hour for the initial pick-up, a circling of Madiwala, and then to get out of that Madiwala section. That was the traffic density of Bangalore on a Friday night, perhaps, every night. But it picked up speed. Had just one halt for refreshing, and by around 6.30 was at Thrissur. Then again it was bad traffic and bad roads, and I saw the skill of the driver to reroute at apt times to save time, and finally reach me at Kalamassery around 9 am. I appreciated him for his skills.  He said that he had timely support from google!

By 9.15 am, I am at the Provincial House, Rajagiri, Kalamassery, and fortunately, I still get access to a room, which is kind of assigned to me, but is open to the guests, when I am absent. As this was an unannounced visit, it was likely to have been occupied. But no. It was available. I freshened up. Got the common bike - a 125 cc Glamour with some braking issues and managed to reach Perumanur Lourde Church well in time for the 10.30 mass. In between I also managed to get an appointment with the dentist. 

Golden Jubilee of Wedding It was the jubilee of the parents of Dr June Cyriac, my sister-in-law.  Dr. Cyriac and Pushpa, her parents have lived together, I assume happily, for 50 years!! It is indeed a great feat! An admirable one - and according to me, worth conferring an honorary doctorate, in academic terms! Having overcome some health crisis in between, they are now living happily with their only daughter and family, and compensating for having had a lone daughter, by caring for their three grandchildren.  It was also the celebration of the first holy communion of Paul-June's son, Alphons Ignatius.  I got to know Aunt Pushpa's name, and Ignatius' name for the first time fully.  Perhaps, it was I who baptised him. Dr Cyriac has served the society as a doctor for more than 50 years, and as a family man for 50 years supported by his wife. Great blessing! 

Unexpectedly, Fr Vicar insisted that I be the main celebrant and Fr Payyappilly to give the message. Paul was not expecting me, and I had asked him to go ahead with his arrangement and in case, if it were possible, I would join. But now here I was! I reluctantly agreed. There was also Fr Tomy, perhaps, arranged by June. The mass was fine. Fr Payyappilly gave a good message. There was renewal of the marital vows. And finally 'te deum' (lak alaha). I remained for the start of the short felicitation meeting. Then rushed to meet the dentist. It was in time. Got my teeth examined. There was a small cavity, which was filled and the teeth cleaned. 

Back to Provincial House - the solemn vows of the brothers of the province was happening at 2.30 pm. Out of the four, 3 happened to be my students.  Greeted them in advance, and around 3.20 left for Vechoor to take part in the family unit mass at Shiby's place. This was an addition on account of Shiby's insistence. Again here, I had asked them to not to count on me, and that I would join the prayers, if and when possible. I thought I would make it in time, but then near Vaikom, the bike developed trouble and wouldn't move. There was a spluttering noise when the start button was pressed. Fortunately, in about 100 mts, I could find a mechanic.  He had no time. I suggested that he had a look at the spark-plug, which he did, and with some rubbing and cleaning, the bike started. Nearing the spot missed the way twice, and finally I reached the house drenched in rain. The mass had just begun and the gloria was going on. At the time of the Evangelion Fr Abraham Palakkattuchira, Shiby's relative and a parishioner, and a good confrere friend of mine, invited me to give the message. Perhaps I did ok, though the few English phrases should have been avoided, as I observed the crowd and gathered their background later.  After the mass over, met the parish priest Fr Athappally and said hello to him. The family unit meeting began. I slipped out, had the great meal of prawns and pearspot (fish Moilee) prepared by Shyllamma and then took off to Kalamassery. 

Fallen for a Sixth Time: It was drizzling. I was riding cautiously. However, near Vaikom, at Kavarappadam, I saw an older person in front, and applied brake lest I hit, and I lost balance and fell, hurting all over, especially the left arm. I was not able to use it at all. And couldn't lift up the bike. One young man riding a scooter in the opposite direction came and assisted in lifting me up and the bike. I tried to start the bike, it started. Though it was hurting, I could keep the hand on the handle. I thought I would somehow ride and reach Kalamassery. Then, I observed a rattling noise around the chain cover and the bike not moving forward in the gear. It needed some mechanic's help.  It would not be possible then. I called my batch mate Puncha (Fr Jose Punchaputhussery) and sought his help. I was struggling, and the left arm was under severe stress. All this happened in front of a house 'Shivapriya'. The front door was open. No one seemed to pay any attention. I was standing all drenched, bleeding and hurting. I sensed the danger of tetanus. By then someone entered the yard of the house on a bike. I beckoned to him and requested the favour of water to wash my wounds. He sensed the predicament I was in, and offered help. His sister in law came from the house. Turned the water faucet on. Gave me water to drink, and on my suggestion, brought a near-empty bottle of Dettol, which might have been used at some point of time in a distant past. I discovered various points where my outer polish had gone and blood was oozing out - left wrist & knuckles, right knuckles, right toes. That is all. Fortunately, the head was not hurt, thanks to the helmet.  I thought I fell on the right side, but the left shoulder was injured. In the meanwhile, my good friend Puncha, with my junior confrere Fr Shiju came by a car, and entrusting the bike to Mr Priyaraj, they took me to the nearby INDO-AMERICAN Hospital centre. 

There,  at the casualty, the doctor prescribed X-ray, TT injection, dressing of the wounds etc. This was all accomplished without much delay and I think in less than Rs. 1000.00. I had no money or card with me. Shiju was very generous to foot the bill, I asked him to give the bill to the Provincial House, which he brushed aside. That is the new generation - I would feel rather to submit them to the provincial house. 

After the assurance from the doctor that there was neither a slipped shoulder or broken bone, as per my wish, they put me in a local taxi and I reached Kalamassery by 10.30 pm. Now it is very difficult for me to tell someone that I have great pain, I need some help etc. And seeing my gate and my energy level, no one would take me seriously. There was no hot water in my room, though I had thought of having a hot water bath or application at my shoulder. I had to put up with it, and I lay down and slept, though I could not lie down on the left side.  But before that I did manage to get the soiled cassock and my clothes washed in the washing machine. 

Morning, it was only with great difficulty, I could slip into the cassock, but I did manage. Hence, I did not feel like being at the community mass.  Joined Fr Koikara, the house superior, for a private celebration, and reported to him about the accident, and he responded with a disbelieving smile. It confirmed that my general macho appearance would never be gone, and in times of real distress, I am less likely to get any assistance unless I demand it in clear terms.  What to do!! 

Later on, I tried massaging, using a spray, etc., to make the shoulder better. Booked a ticket to Delhi, and made arrangements with my house prior, Fr. Johny, to get a rail ticket from Delhi to Sitapur in his company.  I was dropped at Aluva, and I could manage to lift the heavy shoulder bag on my shoulders - the difficulty was in loading the same onto the shoulder.  I sent the shoulder bag as check-in luggage. My injured shoes in Qatar in a carry bag for repair. The Vistara service, now turned into Air India, served a lacklustre vegetarian meal - but at least they are doing that. They gave a general excuse that their non-veg stock got exhausted - a clumsy excuse! However, I guessed the majority Malayalee guests would have raised a demand for a non-veg meal. 

Another encounter with the Great Indian Railway  On reaching the airport, I was comfortably guided to the Metro by the sign boards, shifting at New Delhi, Rajiv Chowk and then finally arriving at Anand Vihar. My personal comfort is to get into a bus available and reach Sitapur. For once, this change, thanks to the reservation done by Fr Johny. He arrived after a while, bringing along with him a fabulous dinner which I had to manage sitting on a platform bench.  Excellent fish curry (Cutla, I believe), Sardine fried, Shrimp roasted, Mango curry - Angamaly style, and cabbage toran to accompany 2 solid rotis!! Wow!! And a slice of Navya plum cake to crown it all! aananda labdhikkiniyenthu venam! On arrival at Sitapur, I thanked Johny's sister-in-law for this great treat. 

Anand Vihar station is new to me. We can reach the station from Anand Vihar metro. There is a winding walkway down from the Metro up - It was very crowded with people moving up and down. There are two separate lanes for the same. 

The Indian Railway is an amazing network. I observed the whole families moving from one place to another - perhaps shifting homes, with all their belongings in the train.  They don't depend on trucks or other transportation, but on Indian railways! I marvelled at the luggage most of them were carrying. 

We waited and waited for the train, which was seen about 200 mts away, and announced almost regularly from 11.00 pm. Finally, it halted at the station at 11.30. Sharp 11.45. Nothing happened. I kept looking at the digital clock on the platform. 11.52 - it moved. slept peacefully. Woke up at 6.30 am. Still time to go. Amazing, it reached Sitapur at 8 am, almost 15 minutes ahead of the scheduled time!! It was a 2nd AC coach - comfortable. I am still happy with a sleeper tier accommodation. However, this time, the cost was almost equivalent to a travel by UPSRTC bus to Sitapur. One of the very few rail trips since 2005 - but this one, a positive experience. 

Fr Johny would not let me carry my luggage, and I had to use force to take that. Now I felt much better though it is far from the ability to use with ease. And now I am into another day of a busy office, which I have managed to keep busy with something or other. 

I hope the shoulder gets healed without lasting injuries and am able to resume my regular practice of Yoga asanas and the minimal stretch on the basketball court. 

But I feel happy, (as did Cine Actor Innocent about having his mediclaim put to good use, because of cancer), that my sling pouch is put to use again!! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

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Lychee season and Battling the Bats Out here - the Lychee season has begun. The entire tree on our vegetable field was fully harvested by the army of bats in one night. Our administrator finally managed to secure a huge net to cover the one tree that remains closer to the house, and apparently, the fruits are protected. Already, some 25 kilos have been harvested and shared among our friends and staff. I had my fill for the day.  Rambutan, Pulasan, Longan, or hairy Lychee stand no chance near this King of the family of soapberry (Sapindaceae). 














Thursday, 8 May 2025

Meerut Days of Amazing Grace - St Joseph's Study House (1980-83)

Meerut - By Chance

I came to Meerut by chance.  During the vacation after the school final exams (SSLC) in 1980, I came to learn about the presence of Bp Gratian in the town. Bp Gratian had been a figure of inspiration for us residents of Thevara - especially for the Catholics. Among the young adults he was popular as the Mathematics professor of Sacred Heart College, who wore the traditional three piece habit of the Carmelites (not the brown one, but the white), who was the director of the popular school youth animation programme called KCSL (Kerala Catholic Students League), who visited our homes (I remember one such visit, and I don't remember any other priest of the monastery doing that) and who was suddenly elevated to be the Exarch of Bijnor in 1972 and later was consecrated its bishop in 1977.  But he maintained the contacts with the youth he had met on the KCSL platform, and thus all my elder sisters and my elder brother were inspired by him. And we tried to meet him, when we got to know that he was in the town from UP. 

In those days, even when the regular phone was very rare, I don't how we got such messages, and how we managed to have such meetings. I came to know that he was travelling back to Bijnor, and would be leaving from Ernakulam Junction. I figured out the time, and reached the station, taking a platform ticket. And I did see him, and along with him, Rev Fr Gregory who had been the headmaster of Rajagiri school, when my elder brother was a student there. He was there to see the bishop off, as the Provincial of Sacred Heart Province. When I mentioned that I am keen to join the CMIs, the bishop responded with a question: 'Bijnorilekkalle'? (Aren't you opting for Bijnor) as if it was presumed. Now, this had never occurred to me earlier. But when Bishop asked thus, I responded without any  hesitation, 'yes'.  My! what miraculous ways of getting into a track! I don't even know what prompted me to go and meet Bishop Gratian, even before ever consulting or revealing the matter to my parents or brothers or sisters. 

Overhearing the conversation, the provincial intervened, saying, then you join the 'vocation camp' at Kalamassery which will be held soon. Come for that. And that was that. 

I decided and reported home that I was going for a camp - and they had not many questions as I was used to attending several camps.  I went for the camp at Kalamassery, and it was shifted to Vazhakulam monastery, as there was water shortage at Kalamassery. And we had a 2 week long mega camp led by Rev. Fr. Varghese Pudussery CMI.  It had a combination of group building and some very dull spirituality sessions. However, all put together, we were kind of formed to seek a place among the CMIs.  Our SSLC results came during the camp, on the penultimate day. Though I had not done well, I still hoped for the miracle that the newspaper people would come to interview me for being the rank holder!!๐Ÿ˜ By the end of the camp, the decision was made. I was to join (or I was selected). 

The camp foiled an adventure we had planned as friends. We had decided to ride our bicycles up to Kanyakumari - I don't remember exactly who all - But my friend Paul and me for sure. However, the vocation camp came in between, and what would have been a great adventure for those days and that age, had to be dropped. 

I joined the minor seminary, St Joseph's Postulants' Home, at Rajagiri, Kalamassery on 22nd of June. After a week or so, 6 of us who had opted for Bijnor Mission, were taken to Meerut by the rector of St. Joseph's Study House, Meerut, Rev. Fr Mathew Kaiparampil CMI (who was lost to all of us in the fatal accident on 18th May 1981),  501 Begum Bagh, Meerut 250001 was our address for the next three years. 

Tryst with Indian Railways 1980 We travelled by the Jayanti Janta Express. A major section of the trip, the train was pulled by a steam engine propelled by coal; perhaps the last phase it was exchanged for a diesel engine. For the first time on such a long train journey, looking out through the windows, and remaining at the door (Fr Mathew didn't bother to restrict us to be seated in the coupe, and I enjoyed sitting on the doorstep, calculating the speed of the train and also drinking in the varied visages presented by the fast moving train.) Our faces became smeared with coal dust.  We had some food to eat, and the remarkable memory is about 'kulhad' in which tea was served as we entered the northern part of the country. 

We arrived in the afternoon, the third day, at Nizzamuddin. We boarded another local train to reach Old Delhi Station, a station close to ISBT. And carrying our small 'trunk boxes' and bags, we were led across the platforms to the melee of cycle rickshaws and vendors of all sorts outside the station. We were transported to the ISBT by 2 cycle rickshaws, I think. There, we managed to get a bus to Meerut, and I noticed it was 64 km from Delhi. We reached there in about 2 hours, passing by Ghaziabad, Modi Nagar, etc.  And at the bus stand, again, we got into 2 cycle rickshaws to reach our study house, which was to be my home for the next 3 years. 

St. Joseph's Study House, 1980   The twilight made me think that it was around 5 pm. But soon realised that it was around 8 pm. I saw the peculiar kind of door, and the chain-like bolting system.  And a young man from the top of the building, engaged in some masonry work, shouted hello, and rushed down. I thought he was a helping hand or so, but soon we realized that he was Joseph Kurisunkal, our senior (most) who was posted on vacation duty to manage the house while all others were on vacation.  He was engaged in a masonry art work of embossing a St Thomas Cross on the top of the building which had a projected pillar like structure.  He had used squares drawn to a scale on a paper on which the cross was drawn, and was copying the same on the wall with a cement mix.   The task was getting completed and his aim was to have it ready before all the residents arrived back from the vacation. 

I marvel that a youngster (he was the senior most among the aspirants, having joined the seminary some 2 or years later after having a similar stint elsewhere) without being prompted by anyone took such initiatives. The flowering cross was a distinguishing feature of the building. I am pained to find that it was removed so casually and easily when the expansion of the small structure took place, perhaps, leaving not even a picture of the same for posterity. 

For that matter, that culture of taking pictures was totally alien to Meerut training, it appears to me now. Perhaps, neither of our rectors of those times - Frs Mathew and Johny (both of them - of happy memory indeed) - had any such interest. There was never a photo taken of any occasion or of any batch in the three years we lived there. 

Indeed, it was a very frugal existence, with a rigorous training.  However, I/we did not feel that we lacked anything.  I hardly ever felt or heard anyone complaining about the lack of facilities. In a place of about 2500 sq feet comprising 2 floors, in the three years I spent there, in the first year we were 25 aspirants*, in the second year, 27 and in the third year, with just 2 batches,   19; plus Fr Rector and a cook. I remember Mr Tharsius, who was with us in the first year, and Mr Vincent, who was there for the rest of the period. 

Meerut Days We had to get up at 5 am and rush for the morning prayer, which broke into a big jhankar, waking the neighbourhood with our loud chanting of 'shree yeshu bhagvan ki kariye jai jai kaar'. Then we sang the beautiful Tagore hymn: I have come to Thee after the morning dedication and recital of the Angelus. Then we had to report for morning meditation at 5.30 followed by Morning Hours (Sapra) in Hindi, followed by the Holy Mass.  The 15 mts morning meditation  was usually an extension of the sleep hours. There was hardly any initiation as to how one was to make those 15 mts effective.  (The same thing continued even into the Novitiate, and I still feel uninitiated as to how one could pray well in silence and recollection.) And the one who served at the mass had to give a brief explanation of the first reading (epistle) either in Hindi or English. Fr Rector would also give a short homily. There would be spontaneous prayers too. 

In the evenings, we had a time for spiritual reading followed by rosary.  And after night recreation with enthusiastic card or carrom games, we would all listen to the AIR English news and then go for the night prayers.  All had to be in bed by 10 pm or so, unless you were given exemption to sit up late and study, which was very rare. 

Friday mass was to be celebrated by Bp Patrick, who would usually bicycle his way from Bishop's house in the morning. Thursday night there would be 1 hour practice session of songs to be sung, and the Bishop would be there for introducing us to the songs. He would leave after breakfast with us. 

Our breakfast almost consistently consisted of a sookhi roti, with a piece of Amul butter (1"x.5"x.5") and cup of tea.  It is followed by a very quick session of cleaning - toilets, bathrooms, verandas, halls, front yard, etc. This routine hardly ever changed. That introduced me to the readiness to do such tasks willingly and also to keep up one's space neat and clean. 

By 7.30, formal study would begin for all and would continue till 9.30 am, whereas the I year students would be taught Hindi text of intermediate  (XI) class after a brief introduction to some basics of Hindi.  It was done by Mr Gerald Seetharam, the Vice Principal of St. Joseph's Inter-college. (I wonder whether he was paid anything for the same).  He used to come punctually at 8 am and leave at 9 am sharp.  I think we had some break or so for reading newspapers. The seniors would have a break for getting ready to go to school (inter-college).  And all will have the main meal of the day at 10 am. It could be roti or upma or bulgar upma or on very rare occasions, poori, accompanied by lobiya or channa or moong, or aalu, and hot sweet tea (with CRS American milk-powder serving as milk substitute). Aalu bhaji & Poori became more frequent with the arrival of Fr Johny as the rector. Then the seniors rush to the college, about 2 kms away on foot, wearing the sky-blue shirt and navy blue pants.  

Come Sundays, after the morning Church celebrations, we had the invariable literary association, where by turn all got to do something, individually or as groups. I remember learning group songs or preparing speeches for the occasion. 

We had three bicycles, and there was a department to see to their maintenance. I regret that in spite of all that, I never learnt to do any repair work of a bicycle. The bicycles were not all that good, never giving the pleasure of a ride; however, functional. Fr Rector had a separate bicycle, which was in a much better condition. I don't remember what happened to Fr Rector's bicycle thereafter.  Fr  Johny hardly ever used it.  In those days, bicycles also had to get some kind of permit. An aluminium badge indicating the permit was fixed on the handle, perhaps attached to the brake lever.  This would have been a collector's item now! I never had the occasion to directly involve in the process as during my 3 years there, we never purchased a new bicycle. 

There was no phone, no heater, no warm water for a bath, no mosquito nets, no cots.  Our dormitory was a room where we kept our rolled-up mattresses every morning. Otherwise, you found a convenient place in the verandah or study hall to sleep.  I marvel that for three years we slept without mosquito nets, and still hardly any one of us contracted Malaria. 

Of the first-year students, those who have proven skill to ride a bicycle are assigned to fetch beef-buffalo meat, 5 kilos every day, if I recall correctly, even on Friday.  It was just Rs. 2 per kilogram, and the meat shop was about 3 kilometres away. I was surprised to find that meat was so cheap (in Keralam it used to be Rs. 15 or 18 per kilo), and the man would chop the meat of our choice for us.  If one wanted kaleji (liver) or on very rare occasions, kheema (minced meat), he would do that readily with no additional cost. Two other routine shopping ventures were: 1) daily purchase of vegetables from the sabzi mandi. I was really surprised to find cabbage or carrot being sold for one rupee per kilo (Rs 5 per dhadi), or radish for Re. 1.00 for 5 kilos. 2) weekly purchase of sawdust (baruda).  We would go by 2 bicycles or walk up to the mill about a kilometre or 2 away.  Fill the boris (jute sacks) we had brought to its maximum. And carry them back on a rickshaw. 

A daily duty was 'angithi bharna' - getting the sawdust stoves ready for next day.  This was usually done after dinner. Two people on task would fill them with one hollow pipe inserted in the centre, and another perpendicular to it at the bottom - the latter for firewood, and the former, for the fire to escape and heat the vessel. This was a tough task.  Till we completed our 3 years at Meerut, there was neither a gas stove nor an electric stove.

However, the cooking used to be horrible - I sensed something was amiss, though I had hardly any experience of cooking or the kitchen. However, I noticed that for almost all subzis (curries that went with rice or roti), the preparation used to be same. After boiling meat or legumes, you sautee it - boil oil, then add mustard with them bursting in the boiled oil, you add pyaaz (sliced onion) till they turn reddish brown, and then almost in equal measures haldi, dhaniya and mirch (turmeric, corriander and chilly powder), and keep the mix for some time adding the meat or legumes as the case may be.  When I took charge of the kitchen after 6 months, I experimented with stopping mustard for meat, and also the amount of dhaniya and haldi used. I think that was successful, and it went unnoticed, assuming the taste was palatable.  Fr Johny was fond of cooking experiments and would occasionally or even oftentimes, call me for kitchen tasks, and I became quite skilful in 'bal-ing' well-shaped chappattis, and do that very fast. I had no complaint regarding this. 

Social Exposure: In the first year of our stay at Meerut we were introduced to rather tough social service ministries, usually accompanying Mother Teresa sisters.  A daily routine (by turns) was that of helping the bedridden male inmates of 'Prem Niwas' run by Mother Teresa sisters.  The two or three assigned for the day had to depart quickly after the Mass and breadkfast, and give bath to them, after cleaning them up and the bed. This was indeed a tough task.  You are usually accompanied by a senior who does the work and makes you familiar to it.  The winter days would make it tougher. Other occasional services were outreach programmes to the villages for distributing CRS nutritional stuff as a relief.  It would involve weighing the child, recording the same, and supplying the provisions like Bulgar, CSM powder, Soyabeen Oil, a special Soya powder (Corn Soya Milk).  These supplies, meant for the poor, were also part of our diet as we also lived the life of the poor; and perhaps, the CMIs in that region, at that time, were indeed poor. (In my 10 years of association with the CMIs of that region, I observed that they all led a life marked with austerity and frugality.) Once in a while, perhaps, two times or so in a year, we had a visit to the leprosy colony as well. 

Though these were meant to be very rich exposures in themselves, with hardly any orientation regarding them, or any discussion or analysis after them, their impact was much less than what it could have been. 

Two regular services we, as a Bijnor mission unit, used to do for the mission stations were: 1. purchase of band equipment from Meerut for sending to the various schools.  Even these were taken to Keralam when someone was travelling in that direction. 2. preparing dried buffalo meat for the hill stations where it was not easily available, or if at all available, it was much more expensive than at the rate at which we used to get in Meerut. 

Our involvement with the cathedral parish was regular.  We attended the novena to Our Lady of Graces and benediction on all Saturday evenings. That was also our confession opportunity - our confessors were Fr Mathew Edattel, a very holy Malayali priest, and Fr Anthony Das, the gentleman procurator of the diocese. I think both of them have completed their trip on the planet earth. On Sundays, we led the choir of the Hindi mass at 9 am.  Sometimes, our beloved principal, Mr Terrance Doyle, would lead the us in the choir, or would even come for a practice.  Another choir leader was Mr Christopher, s/o our tutor and Vice Principal Mr Gerald. For Christmas and Easter, Fr Montero or some Sophia sister would come and train us to sing new songs for the feast. 

Basketball - Learning it the hard way In the year 1980, we used to go to St. Mary's school run by the Patrician brothers.  The calm and shady campus was a soothing place.  But we had to walk the odd 2.5 kilometres from the study house to get there.  Out of the 7 of us, one had some basic basketball skills, I was familiar with the game, but had hardly ever played, so it was a struggle picking it up, which we did almost unawares.  Bp Patrick used to join us, which was considered a great privilege. But I had observed that then in his late 40s, he could not stop himself firmly in order to avoid a typical violation, though he was passably good at scoring from the restricted area range. Now at 60, I feel some of us are doing much better even while holding responsible offices and being extremely busy to find time to keep fit, even play basketball, and that too, avoiding such basic violations. Only difference is that with no cap on our caput, this is not seen as a great feat! However, his being present there to play was indeed an inspiration for the youngsters in maintaining a fitness culture, even with age. Our rector, Fr Mathew at times arrived on his bicycle and joined us. Fr Johny, our rector in the years 1981 and '82, at times did come to the court, but hardly ever played after some initial attempts. 

In 1981, the court in front of St. Joseph's intercollege was made available, with an uneven clay floor, not levelled.  However, we started using that to avoid the 1 km extra walk to St. Mary's.  The first-year aspirants would carry the ball and reach when the seniors would have done with their classes, around 5 pm.  Then we would play, the seniors would usually play with their uniforms, perhaps, removing their uniform shirt, and rolling up the legs of the pants.  But there would be an earnest game. There was hardly any coaching for the newcomers. They gradually got included and picked up without really being instructed in the basic skills. 

Then all would rush back, then there would be some tea and snacks (usually some sort of bonda or chiuda) and then all had to rush to have their bath and washing of the soiled clothes. We had, in all, 5 toilets and 4 bathrooms.  Perhaps, Fr Rector had a toilet cum  bathroom - I am not sure.  Usually, one had just one set of uniform, and that would mean washing that in the evening and getting that dried overnight and putting the same thing on the next morning. Some did carry an outfit for playing. We used to drink merrily from the hand-pump at the college soon after the games. And at the study house, the municipal water was drunk directly from the tap. No one carried a water bottle to the school, nor bothered to drink or eat anything, even water, until after one had finished with the games. 

Fr Varethaya was another influential figure around - as the assistant parish priest, he was running around and speaking out to the youth and people. He would make his appearance at the basketball court, and shout at us, and attempt a 3-pointer.  Though his enthusiasm for the game was evident, that didn't translate into his being there on the court to play regularly.  However, he was behind in taking our team for some matches, and I recall him inviting our team for the inaugural match at Modipuram school, when he was transferred there in 1982. He is no more!

Our next door neighbour was Mr Chaudhary with whom we hardly had any interaction, so with most of the neighbours.  We lived a kind of insular life. Mr. Gaur, our Hindi professor, lived about 100 metres away.  However, even with him, we didn't have much interaction.  

For our medical or health needs, we used to depend on St. Luke's hospital, about 3 kilometres away, in those days, in the outskirts of the town. Fr Lukas, a Malayali priest was its founder director. I trust he continued to be so till the end of his life. His elderly mother was also with him. With frequent stomach aches as a young aspirant, I had to seek the help of the hospital 2 or 3 times, though I got rid of that nuisance with a simple remedy prescribed by my eldest brother-in-law, when we met in 1983, on my first visit to Keralam after joining the seminary. The hospital had the services of the Sardhana sisters (Franciscan Sisters of Our Lady of Grace), a Meerut-based congregation. 

Some of the regular annual activities included practice for Christmas carols, the ecumenical Christmas celebration consisting of a procession from the Methodist church to the Catholic cathedral, going around on Diwali night to see the illuminated streets. 

Some significant events during my stay there were: 1) The visit of Mother Teresa. We even had a group photo taken with her, though I am afraid hardly any of us would have a copy of it. Fortunately, one chance picture with me also in the frame, has come to me courtesy, Fr Davis Varaylan.  Bp Patrick a great fan of Mother Teresa, invited her, and she addressed the gathering in the church.  The pulpit was kept at the centre of the historical cathedral, with its classic pews having holders for guns for the soldiers who attended the mass. Mother Teresa insisted that the pulpit be shifted to the side of the aisle.  I don't recall her message.  2) The terrible tragedy in which we lost 8 of our seniors* who were all set to leave for their much-awaited vacation after being away from their home state for 3 years. They were enroute to Pauri from Jaiharikhal, and 3 of us residing in Pauri (Gadoli) were awaiting them, with even some dinner prepared for them. They did not turn up. The next morning, we received the shocking news of their death in the Satpuli accident. Fr. Mathew Kaiparambil, our rector accompanying them, Rev. Fr Johny Manavalan with whom the three of us were having a thrilling time in Pauri, and the other resident of Gadoli, venerable Bro Romuald, and the sannyasi priest Fr Augustine Manjooran - all of them perished in this fatal accident.  That led to a rethinking on Meerut training, and from the next year onwards, students were sent home for a vacation after the first year training. One of my batchmates, George Mookilikkat, who always exhibited some amount of eccentricism, on learning this news, as he was there at Lansdowne when these seniors visited the place, covered the entire distance of about 30 kilometres between Lansdowne and Satpuli running, and suffered some traumatic stress for some time. 4) There were some Hindu-Muslim riots and closure of institutions and curfew, most likely in the year 1981. 5) Some of us got the opportunity to visit Sardhana, the pilgrim centre 22 kms away - especially by way of taking around the rare visitors to the study house from Kerala.  I got 2 such opportunities to serve as a guide, and also to join the on-foot pilgrimage which happens during the summer (as I was on vacation duty at the study house). I am surprised to observe now that there was no such practice by which the newcomers were taken to such an important pilgrim centre. 6) Our annual exposure to 'missions' by way of staying in a mission station during the summer.  7) There was no tradition of annual or batch tours as well. In my three years there, we were the only batch taken for a two-day tour of Delhi by Fr Rector. It was Asiad times, and we could witness the emergence of a new, planned, greener Delhi.  We also visited the Presidential palace, India gate etc.  8) ASIAD took place in 1981, and we had no TV. We were permitted to watch a few matches on the black and white TV of our next door neighbour, Mr Choudhary, the only time we had visited with him or spoken to him. We witnessed the routing of the Indian hockey team 7-1 in the finals. 9) There was also a youth meet where Fr Samuel, Br Anildev IMS and Chotte Bhai (Allen de Noronha) led the youth, including us aspirants, in a youth retreat, with some good Hindi devotional songs. Those songs and the tangible zeal of Chotte bhai are still imprinted in my mind. Fr Samuel, later on, took to an Indian Sannyasa lifestyle as Sadhu Astheya, and was reported to have been murdered by someone, most likely part of the anti-Christian actions that had been occurring intermittently in the North of India.  Fr Anil is now said to be a reputed retreat preacher in the North Indian region. And Chotte Bhai has become a bade bhai, writing columns and blogs and being a Christian social activist. 

The only movie we had watched in three years there was Richard Attenborough's Gandhi, which was indeed a class movie and very inspirational too. I am afraid, after watching that Fr Johny, our rector, took to Gandhian ways of fasting and silence to correct us, though not successfully.  It only put on a pallor of melancholy on the scenario.

Fr Johny, once a very jovial young priest with his boisterous laughter, on putting on the mantle of rectorship, became a lugubrious and sombre self with hardly any mirth, but only sincere but scrupulous concerns.  He expected me to be on the path 'sainthood', which I was not opposed to, but also discovered the rebel in me, questioning him and challenging his methods, perhaps not publicly but in person.  However, this shift in his demeanour did not really make him any less a gourmet, nor averse to his interest in experimenting with cooking, and also growing animals and birds (guinea pigs, doves, etc.) which we also used as menu items for special occasions. 

Though  I recall the solemn celebration of Rector's Day in the first year (St. Matthew), with Br Kurisunkal in the lead, and a bada khana as its centre of attraction, I don't recall similar events in the last two years. 

In 1982, Br Sebastian Kizhakekkara joined us after completing the mandatory bachelor Philosophy. He was on a stop-gap arrangement as he was supposed to join the newly introduced (prestigious?) M. Ph programme at Dharmaram. In the meantime, he involved with us as an elder brother, initiating us into some songs, joining us to play basket ball, and above all, involving in setting up the new school project at Ghaziabad which has revolutionized the Christian presence in Ghaziabad over last four decades, leading to the great Mariam Nagar institutional area, with Christ University campus as the latest arrival.  The relationship with Sebastian which began thus has continued over the years, as his assistant in the task of collecting material for the great value education project 'Becoming Disciple' and even after his leaving the congregation after completing the Theology bachelor's programme and establishing himself as a medical practitioner in the US. 

Looking back, I feel it was a great training at Meerut - a life of regularity, discipline, frugality.  It made us tough, I think.  Though I do feel the occasions could have been made much more effective with reflective analysis of the varied experiences, with introduction to the local culture a bit more purposefully, and introduction to cultural aspects of North Indian life - language, religions, rituals, etc. The well-meaning rectors were very good people, but didn't have the necessary wherewithal to guide the young bunch in an optimal manner. 

I made it a point to visit the study house in March, realising that it is to be closed down, the ownership to be handed over to the diocese of Bijnor.  I very much wanted a gathering of the old students of the study house, to come together, share our lived experiences, relive them, get some pictures, and meet the people connected who are left on the planet. I was warmly received by the last Rector of the study house Rev. Dr. Jomon CMI.  I joined the alumni day celebration at St. Joseph's, though I arrived to be an aam alumnus, having the tag of a Rev. Fr, and that of the principal of a Christian institution was treated as a special guest by the present Manager, Rev. Fr. .....

I regret that we did not make really good use of our wonderful exposure there, nor establish good relationships with our neighbourhood. 

I regret that we have never tried to explore Meerut as a centre of the Sepoy Mutiny of 1857 (the first war of Independence), in spite of having been there for 3 years, and having learnt 'History' as part of our curriculum. 

I regret that the training centre is being stopped and the three year integrated training is abandoned, adding to the burden on human and infrastructure resources. 

I regret that there are hardly any photographs of the memories of our life there. 

I regret that we have not celebrated the simple and straightforward lives of the early rectors - Fr Anasthasius (?), Fr Stephen, Fr Mathew, Fr Johny, etc. 

Joseph Kurisunkal, George Mullappally, Joseph Palliparambil, Aloysious Kolliyil, Joseph Ambat, Joseph Madassery. Sebastian Kadalikkad was the lone survivor who left the congregation after completing the novitiate. James Valiyakunnel who had left before the vacation for some purpose, also quit the seminary soon after the accident, and is said to have built a career as a Hindi Professor. 

Our seniors: Peter Adukuzhiyil*, Antony Punnackal*, Tomy Kapiarukudiyil*, Davis Varaylan*, Joy Parecattil, George Puthenpurayil, Vakkachan Palatty, George Peter Vallikkavunkal*, Sebastian Kaipramabil, Davis Madassery. (All starred ones now CMI priests, with Davis Varaylan being the Provincial of Bijnor province. Sebastian became a priest for the Khandwa diocese.) 

Our batch - George Mookilikkat (an advocate in his native village of Thankamany, Kamakshy, Idukki - his daughter studied at SHC while I was serving there), James Palathinadiyil (retired Hindi teacher from KE School, Mannanam; his son was a student at SH College while I was serving there), Mathew Panthalanikunnel (a private tutor with several students in Kuruppanthara), Joy Poovathussery (entered Indian army, met him once on a train trip), Mathew Parayil (English/Social Science teacher for long at St. Thomas Mandsaur), Joby Edassery (Professor of Hindi at CUSAT). 

Our junior batch - Francis (his daughter studied at SHC while I was serving there), Shaju Pulichamakkal, Shaju, Devassia, Mathew Kurissummoottil*, Geesan Ponthempally*, Dominic Kunnupuram*, Tanty Koikara, Martin Parakkal, Shijan (retired Principal of Prajoti Niketan College), Denny (whose daughter studied at SHC while I was serving there).